Why do I fear?

So for those of you that do not know Jeremy has been working out of town lately. I am a big baby and do not like being a lone at night. I end up really barricading myself in and do not sleep well because I am so scared. As I've been going through the study Believing God by Beth Moore I've come to realize that if I am so afraid then that means I do not believe God can keep me safe. I am not trusting Him but instead am scared laying in my bed thinking of all of the horrible things that can happen. Why do I do that to myself? So last night I barricaded myself in my bedroom and got in bed and just prayed that God would give me His peace and security. Anytime I began to feel afraid I just started listing all of God's attributes and really focused on the powerful ones like Mighty God, Strong Tower, etc and it really helped! I ended up sleeping really well until my cat decided he would cry really loud until I let him in the room. I'm going to start focusing on how powerful God is and not focus on being afraid. I have no reason to fear....God is right there with me and will get me through any situation I come across!

A Wonderful Weekend

This past weekend was just beautiful! Jeremy was home the whole weekend which was really nice! We ended up just hanging out on Saturday and worked around our house both inside and out to make it look nice. We went over to our friends house for a BBQ and then the girls came back to our house and we started our Beth Moore Bible Study Believing God. It's an online study so anyone can join! It sounds and looks like it is going to be an awesome study!

On Sunday we went to church and then borrowed his parents kayak and went kayaking together. It is a two person kayak and Jeremy fished a little bit while I soaked up some sun and read a book. Don't worry it is not a tear jerker! It is about Amish people who I find fascinating for some odd reason. I ended up getting a nice tan! I didn't realize until we were about to head back that I could put my legs out on the front and tan my legs, so only my thighs were tanned. Oh well! Next time I will just tan my legs and let Jeremy fish as much as he wants! Hopefully this coming weekend will be lovely and we can do more outdoor activities! I will post pictures when I get a chance!

Never accept books from my MIL

For the past week my mother in law has given me a few books to read. Which has been nice because I love to read! The problem is that they are the tear jerker kind! On Sunday night I finished one called Gardenia's for Breakfast. It was a great book until the end. Jeremy came to bed and I was crying. Poor guy I think I scared him. Then afterwards I was very emotional so anything he said to me just made me burst out into tears. Last night I read another book she gave me called A Thousand Tomorrows. I knew right away it was going to be sad because it was about a girl with Cystic Fibrosis. I was sobbing at the end! Sobbing! I couldn't believe it! From now on I'm only going to accept happy fun books and not read the sad ones!

I feel blah....

Do you ever have those days where you just feel...blah? I feel like I'm having one of those weeks. I think it is just hard to come back from a vacation and then jump right back into work and school. Although I should be glad I only have 6 more class days and then I'm completely done! I think the main reason I am feeling blah is because Jeremy has been gone the past few days. He was gone all day Saturday, Monday night and last night. I was just lonely and missed him! But he will be back tonight and then I told him he was not allowed to be gone again for the rest of the week. I think we are going to plan a weekend get away next weekend and just spend some quality time together. Maybe we will go camping in the Adirondacks!

Not too much has been going on in my life. I guess the most exciting event is that I'm going to be starting a Beth Moore Bible Study with a few of my friends on Saturday night! I'm excited because I do need the accountability to help me really stay focused and I like hanging out with these girls.

No news yet on a teaching job. I'm still just trusting that God's plan will be revealed to me soon! For now I just need to be content letting Him guide me! Alright I better get back to work before I get caught! =)

We're back!!!

Well we made it back safe and sound from LIFE 2007! We had an awesome time! It was so amazing to see God work in all of the teens lives. There were about 7500 total there and it was so special to be a part of it. Words cannot describe all that we experienced. God is so amazing! I learned so many important things and just pray that my life will reflect who Jesus is.

We returned yesterday around 3 in the afternoon. We had to leave our hotel at 3:30 am so it was a long day. We just basically slept the entire afternoon and evening. Only waking to eat dinner and check our email. Fun times! =) It was nice to sleep in the same bed with Jeremy again. It was weird sharing a room with 3 teenage girls and have Jeremy be across the hall with the 3 boys. I didn't have to be afraid to move at night because I was afraid I would end up cuddling with the girl in my bed if I got cold!

My last class starts tonight. I'm not looking forward to it, but I will be done in 5 weeks. I'm happy about that! I hope everyone has a wonderful Monday! Hopefully this week will fly by and then the weekend will be here!